If I'm honest I didn't go because I made up excuses. We had friends down for the weekend, it was gale force winds so I would go tomorrow. Tomorrow came and I just haven't got it in me.
My head is telling me I can't. I know I can do this. My legs can. It's my mind holding me back.
I often get like this after I completed a half marathon, for me at the moment weekly mileage is in unknown territory for me. When you lose weight your body changes but it's hard for your mind to catch up. In my head I'm still the fat girl who won't be able to run a marathon. Even though I can feel my legs getting stronger, I just need my mind to get stronger.
These next few weeks I'm working nights, which is also causing me to stress out as I'm concerned about how I will fit in running and sleeping. My friend suggested scheduling a time in the afternoon specifically for a run which I will try tomorrow.i shouldn't be moaning, people work nights and train all te time. I guess it's a fear of the unknown.
The pressure is getting to me this week. The fact I'm running for a charity, so many people believe in me. I don't want to let them down. And after missing yesterday's run I just feel like I've taken a few steps backwards.
A kick up the bum is welcomed from anyone!