It's all Psychological...

Ok I'm not just saying this because I study psychology, but eating healthily and staying on track is all in your head. Today I have been so focused and it's because I told myself to stay on track, and also I actually ENJOY healthy food...rabbit food.. salad all that, it's actually quite nice!! Should be quite simple.... lets see how long this lasts then!!

Day 13 -A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.

I don't really know where to start this...

We both know how we feel about each other but yet we always end up back here both being hurt. I could call you every name under the sun because I " hate" you... I don't hate you.... the complete opposite of that I love you, and that's what hurts the most. You used to love me, and I don't know if you do any more... but we always seem to hurt each other, thinking the other one wants to purposely.

The amount of time I've spent crying for you is not worth thinking about, it's too long. I wish I knew why we never work and how I always end up getting this hurt, you don't know how much you've hurt me this time. Messing me around this much hurt a lot... I know I've messed you around in the passed and maybe it hurt a lot but I can't honestly think it could have hurt as much as this. If it did, I'm sorry.

Everyone tells me to move on, that I'm just going to get hurt, every time I want to prove them wrong, but you always go and prove them right.

No matter how lonely or drunk I get I can't go back there again. I've finally realised that I will always love you and have some sort of feelings for you, but we won't ever work together, whether you want to work at our friendship is completely in your hands now, I've given my all and tried my best, just to have it thrown back in my face most of the time.....

xx

Wow, writting that was a bit emotional, but in a good way. It's time to move forward.

"Can't be bothered isn't going to get me anywhere!!!"

Ok so I've had a bad week and haven't tracked or done much exercise... but I put on 2.5lbs!!!!!! I was NOT expecting that when I got on the scales. I need a big kick up the behind, I literally had to drag myself to the gym after WW. Where has all my determination gone? Don't get me wrong... I still want to do this, but it seems like so much more of an effort now than to when I started back in May.... Maybe a week back on track will cure that!!

Day 12 - How you found out about blogger and why you have one.

So a fellow weightwatcher started a blog about her weight loss, I was reading and thought it would be a good way to follow me weight loss... so here we are.

MY LEGS HURT :(

So having not run for a couple of day, I went today and did 3.5k seen as I realised my 10k run is in SIX, yes SIX weeks. That really isn't long at all. UH OH! I also realised a lot of running further is psychological. I had planned to do 5k, I told myself I couldn't but I would push myself and do 4k, I am then comfortable around the 3/3.5k mark and that is what I did. This is nor going to help my training at all!! So tomorrow I WILL PUSH MYSELF!!!

Day 11- Another photo of you and your friends.

Ok so the photo's are STILL at the top of the page because I need a technology geek to come and explain it to me how to move them!

This photo was taken on Wednesday, which was such a good night - a lot of alcohol was consumed and that was even before we got on the bus to go to Cardiff! My friend from Uni was down which was great for her to meet all the girls and Rach had her friend from Luff down so was a lovely night!!

Day 10

Day 10- songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad

When I'm sad it has to be a bit of Westlife - What about now. Or Miley Cyrus - The Climb.

Bored - it's a bit of anything from Taylor Swift, to Eminem to Whitney Houston.

Happy - A bit of Glee gets me in an even better mood, or JLS, Jason Derulo.

Mad- I'm usually made at someone I love, so I put on the love songs, which just make the situation worse really!

I had my Camp America Interview today and it went really well:) soo supperrr excited about that! But I have to wait till like november/december to find out if I have a place. Really hoping I have as it will be amazing!

Attempted to get back on track today... was going really well until I came across the apple danish in my car from yesterday.... I'm still in points for the day, but not expecting a loss this week, hopefully a STS.. 1lb gain at most....

xxxx

Day 9

Day 9 - Something your proud of in the last few days...

Reaching my 10% goal. OK it's not in the last few days, it was last week but I am still incredibly proud of myself for it.It took me 12 weeks and 25.5lbs later I reached it. I still have a long way to go, but these little goals are what keep me going! Next one is 15%! :)

xxx

I am ridiculously hungover!!!

After an incredibly drunken but amazing night I have spent this beautifully sunny day in bed recovering!! The hangover is definitely worth it, loosing my shoes and picking glass out of my feet this morning - well that's debatable! I also haven't given in to hangover munchies either which I am very proud of. We are all going for a harvester later, but oh well!

I should really learn that when I am drunk I should let my emotions get the better of me & should also not be allowed a phone, as it results in my telling the person I love, that I love them even though were over. Good One there!

Day 8 - Short term goals for this month & why.

I'd like to loose 2lbs, I know this is possible and I would then have reached the 2st mark. After that 2 lbs I'd like to loose another 7lbs to get my next silver 7. I am sure these are totally possible - as long as I don't over indulge in Freshers's Week!!I also want to increase my running, and stick to my plan as my 10k run is coming up very soon and I'll actually collapse on the way around if I don't get my act together. I also want to sort out my finances and stop going shopping when I have no money and start saving!

SO EXCITED!

I am literally dancing around the house with excitement, my friend from uni is coming down to stay and a couple of my other friends have their friends down from uni and were all going for a night out in Cardiff and I cannot wait! EEEKK! Only 7 hours till I pick her up!!

I'm a bit late with my blog challenge as day 6 was my favourite super hero. I don't really have one, so I'm just going to leave that out!

Day 7 - a picture of someone/something that has had a big impact on you.

Again the picture is at the top of the page because I STILL cannot move it! It is a picture of me and my mum. Sounds totally cheesy but my mum is such an inspiration and has had a big impact on me, and made me who I am today and I thank her for it! She has had her fair share of upset in life and has come out stronger on the other side and used her experiences to help others. She always puts everyone before herself and never does anything for herself bless her. She works so hard for everything she has achieved and even having knock backs in life it doesn't seem to put her off. Mum I Love You :) xxx